i'm having bad hair day like.. for a week? sucks. everyday sucks. school days sucks.
i suck. okay.
nvm my hair is all curl and big. arg.
my weight. very bad. all bcos of the late night suppers and my very very good appetite these days. even though it means that i'm recovering but consider the food i take, i doubt i'll stay healthy for long.
i want to swim. run. jump. fly. escape.

i have no idea how ppl can become aneroxic. become so freaking thin. a girl of ht 160++ said this "34 kg is my ideal wt. i feel 38kg is still abit too heavy" ARG!! i dont think i will ever get aneroxic even though i seems to go on a diet forever i never stay long on it. and i'm never ever considered thin since primary 2. nowadays all e girls are so normal (thin) with a waist of 22 to 24.5 inch. while i'll never fall into that range. i'm waiting or hoping desperately for that day to come. i'm not being materialistic or vain dying for a wonderful figure. the least that i want is to be a considerably okay size and healthy. i'm jus being realistic. and trying to create some perfection in myself. and of cos i wish to travel around the world and learn more new things etc.

i dont want to cope up in my room and read "A n C" for the 4th time. i've been feeling really stupid these days. i cant catch up with anything be it maths, chi or lit.i really tried.i tried.and tried.skipping classes to study on my own sighh feeling so tired every now and then. i kept reminding myself is only one mth plus away and i'm facing the As. miracles do happen...i hope